Kids on Holiday

There's a boy who's a Krishna,
and he thinks you look pretty.

Yeh, that has nothing to do with this post. But right now, I don't actually really know what's going to or not going to do with this post... soooo.. whatever. O.k., yeh. So this weekend, I finally just got some time to myself to mellow the fuck out and do absolutely nothing. There's nothing quite as refreshing as some lazy-as-fuck-but-whateva-i-do-what-i-want time. Yeh. We had the day off today as it was Children's Day(I know, what the hell?) Children's Day here, Cinco De Mayo elsewhere.

So, April 29th marked the date of Jake's departure.
He's left us for a better place, a little somewhere he calls St. Paul. Well, fuck you St. Paul! I want my friend back! Blah, we're already so few in number and now we've been knocked down again. But I truly hope that somewhere in between those heavenly bites of blue cheese bacon cheeseburgers, he'll think of his small, but "devastatingly endearing" chingoos here in Korea. Blargh, miss you Jake. Zack Morris Phone is on repeat, fo sho. (a catchy ass song from his band, Look Down)

I guess with Jake leaving, it really signifies the beginning of the end. And I have major separation anxiety. Seriously, I don't know what I'm going to do. It's really troubling for me to come to grips with the fact that three months from now, I'll have to leave this beautiful place behind to return to my "real" life, whatever the hell that means. And. I. Don't. Know. If. I. Want. To. . and I feel like I won't even have much waiting back for me at home. 2 of my maybe... 4 or 5 friends back at home are going to be moving out of the city(Yeh seriously guys, what the fuck??) I don't know.. I know I was already a misanthropic, antisocial loser back at home, but I guess that now that I'm finally getting used to constantly being around people that I really like... ugh, I don't want to slip back.. and I know it'd be sooo easy to do just that. I'm just sick of having to constantly start over. I don't know.. I've also come to realize that I may not be happy with continuing with one of my majors back at home.. and have come to feel a bit disillusioned, to be completely dramatic. So I'm trying to re-map some parts of my school agenda, that may further prolong my path to reaching that elusive graduation date... I guess there's no need to get into the sticky icky details. I guess it'll be weird when I go back to San Francisco only to have awkward run-ins with former high school classmates who already have "real" jobs and what not. Ugghhh, fuck the small talk. You know I'll be sneaking through backdoors and climbing through windows to avoid these...

I slept over at Anna's house the other day and realized that my love can only grow more and more for this girl every time I see her(which sadly isn't often). Her parents are soooo sweet and give hospitality a new meaning.. now I see where someone like Anna could have came from. Anyways, on the way over, we were berated by a drunken ahjuhshee(old Korean guy) for speaking English.. or for whatever reason. It was actually a little frightening and really uncomfortable.. we didn't really know what to do except stare back at him in awe/horror that anybody could have that much hatred for strangers.. even in a drunken stage. I just wasn't sure what to do in case he decided he wanted to physically assault us or something.. hopefully the other people on the subway would jump to our defense.. yes.. we could only hope. Ooookay but anyways, we watched Say Anything which was awesome! Finally got to watch that iconic scene with John Cusack holding the boombox above his head and ugggh, heart melts. Anyone who hasn't seen this movie, I loved it and would recommend it. It's cheesy fantastic and witty at the same time. Way better than the other trashy 80s movies... which I know can be great but sometimes can leave you feeling kind of ".....really?"




I also watched Kim Ki-Duk's, Hwal

This movie was great in parts, okay in others. The ending was a real disappointment and just kind of... disgusting. I think the director was aiming towards something symbolic but in the end, it was entirely too literal. I don't want to give away any details.. what inspired me to watch this movie in the first place was that it features Korea's most prominent haegum(a traditional Korean instrument; the two stringed fiddle) player, Kang Eun-Il. She composed the soundtrack and it was one of the better parts of the film. I've been taking haegum lessons recently which has been really challenging but really fun. Right now it sounds like shit(somewhat akin to a velosorapter giving birth) but hopefully in time, it will be pretty okay.

Kang Eun-Il's HaegumPlus

Anyway, wow this was a long post.
But I guess in some ways, it was necessary. Either for me, or for you, or for me to get to you... eRr, yeh. Anyway, it'd do me well for yous guys to keep in touch. So do it. Miss you and love you all. Ain't nothin new.